All In A Day With Him

Ahhhh, what a refreshing day! A day of accomplishments and some peace of mind. A new social security card on the way, a recommendation for new eyeglasses from the local Lions Club, a job interview tomorrow, and a relaxed mind. Yes. Yes! YESSS!! All of this is happening because I've put it in His hands not mine.

"The Lord Thunders" is what Steele Croswhite sings in his song Thunders. I'm not sure what verse it comes from but I beleive its in Psalms somewhere. This song is awesome and pumps me up!

Hey Thomas, it may not be Garth but it sure gets me going.

I'll be on a mission tomorrow to find a NIV bible, so I may start to meditate on it throughout the day and night as it states in Joshua 1:8. The job interview is in the afternoon and even if I don't get it atleast its a step in the right direction.

My only fear is fear itself and failure to accomplish what the Lord has in store for me. I pray that these feelings that I'm experiencing don't ever go away, its great to be able to smile, walk and talk with others without believing I'm such a failure.

I've been a Detroit Tiger fan since I can remember, and never gave up on them even 3 years ago when they lost 119 games, this is the same faith that God has in me. He never gave up on me, and has always been supportive of me even when I was the lowest of the low. Now its time for me to put the faith back into Him and do as he wishes. Getting my life back together is not going to happen overnight, but as Will Smith stated in Readers Digest this month: "I do not have to build a perfect wall today. I just have to lay a perfect brick. Just lay one brick, dude."

Seattle Rehab Programs

I've already made a couple of attempts to gain access to rehabilitation programs in Seattle by emailing the City Team Ministries and The Compass Center . Both of these organization have christian based programs which I found through a Seattle.gov search. I'm not sure what kind of response I'll receive since I'm not living on the streets in Seattle, but I believe this may be a step int the right direction. (Currently living on the streets of Salt Lake City.)

I also found another program that may be of interest called Fare Start, who educates those of us who are unfortunate and recovering from the past of drugs and alcohol. I think this would be great in providing me or others the opportunity to learn a trade. (I haven't had a steady job last longer than 1 year in the last 30 years.)

I looked at the weather report today and found that I shouldn't wake up to snow for the rest of the week. I do have a couple of problems tonight and that is trying to get into my camp without others spotting my trail and hoping that my bag didn't soak itself through while being in the stuff sack. I do have some dry clothes in a locker at the University and will dress warm just to be prepared for a possible soggy sleeping bag.

Man, this writing and learning how to change the Blogger template has actually helped me gain some self esteem today. I may even trundle into the city tomorrow to check my mail and find out if there are any day labor jobs.

The hardest part for the last few days has been trying to think positive and get myself out of this depressed state of mind.

In Despair

Not sure where I'm headed with this yet but hope it’s in the direction of turning my life over to a new start.

After 30 plus years of alcohol abuse and living on the edge of totally losing meaning of life, I'm going to try and change it. Shit, it’s been only an uphill battle and now I'm not sure where it's headed.

I'm living outside on the hillside, homeless, above Salt Lake City. Today I found myself covered with nearly 4 inches of snow, but still warm in my sleeping bag. I really don't know where to turn, but I figure any change of direction will be a plus.

I've really burnt tons of bridges during my years and when I stop to figure out who my friends are, I find myself not able to think of one. I'm contemplating going into a long term rehabilitation program but not sure where to go. Today I'm looking at Seattle as a chance to gain a fresh start with the possibility of God entering into my life. Man this whole view may change in just a few hours after I start researching where to go and where to start at.

I hope to add daily posts here about how and where my life is going. Yea, kinda like those reality shows everyone watches. (What a waste, if you want a reality show become acquainted with your neighbors!) If you have suggestions about where to go for help or are able to help me get into a program in the Seattle area please leave me a comment.